Embracing the Details

When I first started planning this wedding (2 months ago) I thought it would be a breeze. Mind you our wedding is now less than 3 months away. My theory, first get all the big items secured like the venue, the photographer, the dress, and then everything would be fine and dandy. And I guess for the most part everything is just fine and dandy, we have a location, I have a dress, we are hoping to have our photographer secured very soon (maybe I was a little late on this one) and the rest just seems to be "details".

These details, as Joe calls everything in the wedding, are pretty much everything. We need a tent, food, dessert, a suit for Joe, rings, music, favors, drinks, vows, flowers, a marriage certificate, you know, the little things. These seem like a lot of details to get figured out in the next 3 months, but I am actually looking forward to it. It feels to get something accomplished. So often in my work life I will spend a lot of time on a project and never see a conclusion, so it feels great to say YES we we have this locked down or that we made that choice together and thus it will be.

I have faith that everything will fall in place, or maybe that is the wrong wording. I have faith that this wedding will be wonderful, but there is still work to be done. If we just leave it, it won't happen. Isn't that how it works? If we don't go taste pie, then there won't be any pie on June 4th, what a hard life it is to attend to these details...mmmm pie.

Engaged and underage (JK)

Ok I am not really underage, well not for much anymore... Social Security benefits, yes, renting a car, no.

But I am really getting married. I know some thought they day might never come, like me 5 years ago, but here I am all engaged up. To a wonderful man if I do say so myself. We are both struggling in the job market, him more so than I right now, but we are full of love and happiness and all those things people should be full of before they get married.

It's a very really possibility (praying hoping wishing fingers crossed) that we will get married in the spring and go teach English abroad in the late summer/fall. Right now we are really looking for something to get our juices flowing, and I am not talking about sex here people, but travel. We would like some divine inspiration to get this dream made a reality, we want to do God's work abroad and fulfill some desire within ourselves to get well, out of ourselves.

That's all for now.

Its always sunny in Colorado

Today its in the 50s, just took little pickle for a walk. I am saddened by the melting snow, but in the distance the high peaks of the Gore range look like the side of a Coors beer can, majestic. I can't really complain about the snow melt because that means summer is on the way, and with summer comes warmer weather and time spent outside with friends and possibly some family as well. As I watch the chairlift usher people to the top of the Dercum mountain, the front mountain at Keystone, I think to my self, can I get 75 days in this year? Soon I will be required to return my ski boots and all I will have left is my snowboard. It wouldn't be bad to go snowboarding again, I am just enjoying skiing more than I have enjoyed any outdoor sport in a great while. Ah the end of winter.

March was supposed to bring great deals of money to the restaurant I am working at. It is typically the most steadily busy month of the year due to spring breaks in the east and south. PS, I hate Texas, you people can't tip if your life depended on it. My friends Susan said she used to make 1000 dollars a week during March, but due to our economic shortfalls I made only $125 total on a friday and staturday night. The goal is to be able to pay my bills and have money to go home for a few weeks in May, I am optimistic that that can still happen, and I will be very sad if it cannot. On the brighter side the credit card and student loan companies have stopped calling me for at least a few more weeks. And even better than that, my brother and his wife are coming to visit me for a few days in April. I have planned to take the days off to go do some spring skiing, but alas I might need to pick up a shift while they are around. That's life.

Overall I am content here making a life for myself. What I am doing is not what I plan to do forever, but for now its where I need to be. Just to be here now.

Colorado thus far

The Colorado River. 9.24.08

Here I am in Colorado. I am loving everyday of self-discovery. I have met wonderful people and found strength in myself. Sometimes you have to take the leap to realized that you are a strong and self sufficient person. Everyday I have to choose whether I want to be with people or not, usually the answer is yes. Living alone forces me to get out and make friends because there is no one to talk to, Pickle doesn't talk back that often. Right now I am loving myself, loving others, and loving Colorado.

When I arrived in Boise Tom and Kathy took me out in his classic car with white walls and no seat belts, it was so nice to have a good meal and a nice bed to sleep in.

The next day, Wednesday, I arrived in Salt Lake City. I didn't like the city too much, but I did get some cool pictures of the Mormon temple. This city is full of meth-heads and MMormons, no joke. But its god's country! I got another nice place to stay with my friend SScott and Pickle enjoyed running around his house without being on a leash. Upon leaving SLC I traveled through creepy eastern Utah where there is only one horror movie gas station on a 100 mile stretch of road. That is a road you don't want to break down on in the middle of the night, no one is coming to save you except the owner of the station who probably has a hook on his hand.

Here we go rafting! I met JR at the Snake River Saloon, he bar tends on the weekends, then I met Barre and we hit it off right away. These are great people who took me under their wing and have helped me figure out who I am. Less than a week in Colorado and they took me on a rafting trip. Pickle came too!

Pickle on JR's lap, a good rafting dog.

Land Ho! Pickle and Jeffery.

I will post more pictures soon, but just to let everyone know, I am doing very well here!

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Playing the Lotto

Let me begin this by saying, obviously I never write blogs, so I will now.

I feel like playing the lotto. It is cheaper and less cancer prone than buying packs of cigs, which I used to do, and there is the potential of a big pay out. I need to travel, I need to get back to that place of pure wonder. The thirst for exploration needs to be quenched, and soon.

Playing the lotto sounds good because its only a dollar, much less than a pound or a euro, and it could result in helping me reach my next destination. I want to go to Asia, I want to go to Australia, and surely I want to go back to Europe. This time I would love to spend a month or months in the Netherlands tracing my family heritage (maybe speaking dutch would help?). Nonetheless I need to move on.

October/November finds me in Colorado, on the slopes and working somewhere in the mountains. But now it is summer and it makes me want to move.

I guess for now I must finish my commitments, save my money and get going. But I still want to play the lotto.

i keep missing them..

So in the past week I have missed both Matt Damon and Jude Law.

Matt was here to promote his new film, and he hung out at the sony center, then Jude was seen with some German actress at the tiergarden in central berlin. I missed both! And I haven't seen tomkat yet, although I did get a glimps of their humble abode, the Hilton near the university I am studying at.

It is so dissappointing, I know the celebs come here, I just haven't seen them!

This week we have so far gone on a 3 hour Enlightenment walking tour, now we will go on another walking tour of Russian things that can be seen in Berlin.

I did get to see a church built by the french hugonouts though, it made me think of the one or two ancestors I had that left france to flee persecution.

tomorrow I will go to the templehof airport so I can write a paper about it. I guess that will be pretty cool, maybe tom will be filming there.

I miss my bed, and the fact that in seattle we never see celebs so i don't have to look for them...

Hope you are all doing well at home!

so mad!

I just wrote a wonderful post and it went away, lost forever in the internet relm. Now I don't know if I have the heart to tell you all I had said.

Anyway, my journey continues toward the ultimate goal. Some people make fun of me for this goal, but I persist. I am here to serve the people, the wondering world, those who read this blog and hope for something interesting, something exciting, someting out of this world (like scientology). I have not seen the happy family of Tom Katie and wonderfully special baby Suri, but everyday I bring my camera in hope of taking the magical shot. The one where tom is holding suri, wearing his nazi fatigues, and Kate is standing next to them not smiling or looking happy one bit. I will sell that shot for millions, MILLIONS!

But alas, it has not happened yet, I have seen the filming location where extras fell off the truck and were injured, I was only 3 days behind them... getting closer. And some people living in my building have worked on set as security, so they are good to keep in contact with, but still nothing.

Rumor has it that Paris Hilton is in Croatia... maybe she will stop here to see me. Oh Gosh I am such a dork.

ps, this computer will not let me add pictures to this blog so I will have to do it later, maybe by that time I will have seen them! RWAR!